#34 August 6th, 2018: “This has been the worst week of my life” #1yearagotodayCW

We’re at page 23, more-or-less halfway through the 50-page Phone Data Review. Despite the doldrums on August 1st, 2nd and 3rd in the timeline, August 4th and August 6th are two huge milestones in the review. Up to this point, August 6th is arguably the day when the most traffic passes between Shan’ann’s phone and Watts’ phone. And there’s a good reason for it. Watts eventually drops the bomb he’s been carrying for weeks.

This is going to be a long one so make yourself a cup of coffee, turn off the TV, strap yourself in and let’s get focused.

We begin our analysis of August 6th by observing the basics:

  1. It was the last full day of the Watts family reunion/vacation in North Carolina. [The next day at 17:00 they flew back to Denver, Colorado].
  2. Watts waited [or was forced to wait] until the very last day of his week-long trip to see his family. For the rest of the time he was with Shan’ann, and it wasn’t pleasant. While she was bickering, he withdrew. [Initially this pattern seemed to fit the basic mold of their marriage, but as the days wore on, and as Shan’ann grew more aggravated and he withdrew even more, she sensed something was seriously off].
  3. When Watts went to see his family on that last day, he went alone – without Shan’ann, and without the kids. This was massively symbolic, and hugely significant. [I’ll explain further down precisely why].

As we go through the timeline of the Phone Data Review, I want to bring in some of the statements from the Discovery Documents. Just to contextualize what we’re looking at, and the way Watts and Shan’ann’s friends describe elements of the timeline. These descriptions aren’t going to be 100% reliable, but they will provide us with some guidance.

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So on page 453 of the Discovery Documents we have Cristina Meacham providing a broad recap. One of the more interesting artifacts in her statement is this:

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This rings true, that in the middle of an argument, Watts timed out and left to sleep on the couch. Bear in mind that on Day 1 Shan’ann slept on the couch; now he is. We know they were constantly texting one another, which reinforces the notion that especially at night, although they slept in the same house, they didn’t share a room or a bed once during that week.

Although Cristina is right about them arguing about the baby, this aspect only came up on the last day, August 6th. Shan’ann seemed to want [or suggest] “sexual relations” with him for the first time on August 5th. According to Watts, the last time he had sex with Shan’ann was when she fell pregnant in late April, early May. Make of that what you will.

Now, let’s drill into the review itself.

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Watts Googling the distance from the moon to the earth seems to be research for another love letter to his mistress. That’s where his head’s at.

Shan’ann doesn’t realize how close she is to figuring out the situation when she tells Watts at 06:20 that morning:

“I can’t handle this and you are ok with it.”

Watts is okay with splitting up from his family, and we know why, but she doesn’t. Although Shan’ann keeps at him, one wonders how or why she couldn’t – or wouldn’t – join the dots. It’s as if she expects him to say something, and only once the words are spoken can reality be acknowledged. Conversely, as long as he doesn’t say something, maybe there’s hope? Maybe he still loves her? Maybe she can still manoevre him? But this time she’s fooling herself.

At 06:22 Watts tries to rationalize his position, even though virtually none of it will be true in six days time.

“I’m not just staying because of the kids [he is]. They are my light and that will not change [it did]. I didn’t fall out of love in 5 weeks [he did, if he was in love with her then to begin with], that’s impossible [apparently not]. I don’t want to erase 8 years just like that. [But on second thoughts, that’s exactly what he ends up doing].”

In his final sentence of that text, Watts reveals what’s been playing out of late between them:

“I’m not sure what’s in my head. I don’t know if it’s my parents, the third pregnancy, if I’m just scared or what. I didn’t use you.”

All of this is likely true, from a certain point of view. He’s trying to be as honest as he can be, and he’s not sure what to do. It’s true that he doesn’t know how he’s feeling, or what he’s going to do about it. He mentions his parents, the third pregnancy and feeling scared. Or what is a kind of self disclosure, referring to Kessinger.

This is his first hint that he’s having doubts about the third child. It happens on the last day of their North Carolina trip.

Shan’ann’s accusation that he used her to have a third child doesn’t resonate at all. If anything, Shan’ann’s been using him all along:

A). …as a prop for her Thrive spiels,

B)…as a sperm donor so she could realize her dream [of being a mom] and,

C)…very clearly, she’s been using him as an ATM. 

As Shan’ann goes on and on, with text after text, Watts feels a gnawing sense of dread.

“This has been the worst week of my life.”

Watts must have looked at that, shaken his head privately, and thought: “It’s so much worse! You have no idea.”

The key here is that in terms of Shan’ann, Watts is scared. He feels guilty and scared. He doesn’t know what to do. With Shan’ann’s hair trigger temper, anything can happen. He wants to keep things under control. He’s not sure what to do. He’s terrified that if he’s honest, if he tells her he wants to leave her, there will be a nuclear explosion. And he doesn’t know what that’s going to look like. What’s Kessinger going to think? That’s his dilemma. That’s what he’s afraid of.

We have confirmation of this on page 599 of the Discovery Documents, where Watts explains his misgivings about how to go about the separation while at the same time admitting he was completely infatuated, intoxicated by Kessinger.

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This is Cassie Rosenberg’s version of the last week in North Carolina. [Discovery Documents, page 627].

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None of this has happened yet, mind you. But it is going to play out today. On their last full day in North Carolina he’s going to tell her he doesn’t want the third baby, and he’s not in love with her. These are two huge bombshells, but on the morning of August 6th, the day he’s supposed to see his folks, they haven’t dropped yet.

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On the last day, it seems Kessinger’s still sending Watts pictures of herself.  [This is despite whatever she saw on Shan’ann’s public Facebook profile].

We can’t be sure exactly when Watts went to see his folks, or how he got there. Presumably they came to pick him up very early in the morning without waking the kids. This might explain the 06:00 texts. Watts may have answered them from the car.

In any event, he visits his family without Shan’ann and without the kids. This provides him with involuntary mental preparation. By being with his wife and kids for a week [described by Shan’ann as the worst week of her life] and then the relief to be away from her, Watts has an opportunity to imagine not just not being with his family, but further exploring the notion of getting rid of them.

What would that look like?

One thing was certain. If he did it the right way, Shan’ann would seize control and leave a scorched Earth around her. The introvert’s head was in overdrive – thinking, plotting. How can I fix this? If he did it his way, maybe…maybe things could work out, for him, for them.

It’s difficult to imagine Watts carrying out his annihilation six days later if it wasn’t for Shan’ann – symbolically at least – annihilating herself and the kids from the equation on August 6th. It’s this moment right here, where Watts goes to see his family, and Shan’ann refuses to let him take the kids, and she also cuts herself out of the equation.

At the end of the day, Watts lets Shan’ann know in his own craven way that he’d like to sleep at his folk’s house, if that’s okay. His folks would prefer for there not to be a scene. But Shan’ann’s not interested. Should she come pick him up?

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Watts tries to explain that his father is prepared to drive him the next morning – is that okay? No. It’s not. Shan’ann puts her foot down:

“We fucking leave tomorrow. I need help.”

She elects to drive to them regardless, and regardless of her earlier declarations that she’s spotting and doesn’t want to risk walking into them. But Watts inverts the situation, and tells her they’ll bring him home anyway.

This was a precious time for Watts. It was good to be home. He felt himself dreading going back to her. Probably he had some kind of heart to heart with his parents, confiding to them about some of his feelings. His mother might have convinced him, or influenced him, to just tell her. And isn’t that what they spoke about that evening, perhaps while on the drive back to Aberdeen, when it was just him and his folks in the car, driving reluctantly back to her?

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At 21:39 Watts is apparently back at the Rzuceks, and the arguing is still non-stop. He’s finally told Shan’ann how he feels. He’s not in love with her any more. She demands to be hugged. She bristles, adding:

“Make me feel like everything is going to be ok.”

With each successive text, things are getting worse and worse. How can he regain control of this precarious situation?

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Now we’re at the very end of their last night in North Carolina, and it’s getting ugly. The expletives are coming out [from Shan’ann’s side]. She feels like he’s dropped a bomb on her, and she’s more indignant than ever.

How many times do I have to ask you to hold me?”

Shan’ann despairs more and more, but Watts can’t hold her or hug her. It’s becoming clearer he must find a way to fix this, a workable way out, and as Shan’ann becomes more emotional, he becomes less so.

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At 22:33 Shan’ann’s had some time to reflect. She’s realized there’s been a pattern from him for weeks. She remembers it’s been happening for a while – him falling asleep at 7 or 8. She’s so close to figuring it out! She’s already guessed [and guessed right], but unusually for her, now she puts the ball passively into his court.

“You’re not telling me something.”


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“You’re not telling me something.”

This is definitely going to set the alarm bells in his head.

When we revert back to Cassie’s statement in the discovery, we see that Shan’ann begins to act counterintuively right here.


Shan’ann decided not to push Chris on the matter.

From Shan’ann’s perspective, this was a fatal mistake.

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There’s a final aspect to deal with regarding August 6th. During the hours Watts was alone with his parents, what did they talk about? Bear in mind, Cindy had been “hesitant” about Shan’ann from the get go, and Ronnie couldn’t have been too happy about how he’d been treated either – he’d taken a week off work to babysit his grandchildren. It couldn’t have sat well with any of them for Watts to have seen his folks only once, and  only on the very last day of the trip.

So, with Shan’ann not being there, and the kids not being there, there was an opportunity for the three of them to talk openly about Shan’ann. They would have chuckled derisively about her temper, but also been scornful of her attempts to control everyone and everything.

“I don’t see it…I don’t see what you see in her.”

Perhaps Watts confided in his father then that he was having an affair. We don’t know when his parents found out, but we know it was no surprise to Ronnie Watts when his son mentioned the affair during the First Confession. Watts may have felt more comfortable letting his father in on his secret, because his father may have had an affair as well, at least, Cindy had suspected as much.Fullscreen capture 20190806 003559

Whether he told one parent or both parents, one thing was certain; at the time he was having serious issues with Shan’ann, they were having serious issues with her too. It would have been easy, and perhaps a comforting relief, and even validating, for him to offload.

He could share his misgivings about the marriage, and vice versa. His father and mother may even have expressed their solidarity to their son in terms of his predicament, while at the same time warning him about the perils of divorce.

The penny must have dropped for Watts right then that if something happened not just to Shan’ann but the kids as well, well, his parents had already resigned themselves not to seeing her, and the die had been cast in terms of them never seeing the kids again. And since they’d blocked Shan’ann on Facebook, Watts may have imagined they’d be in the dark about what happened to her going forward.

In other words, if Shan’ann and the kids disappeared, how would they know, and if they did know, would they really care?Fullscreen capture 20190818 135123

If you’re finding these blogs drilling into the Phone Data Review useful and insightful, there’s far more analysis and insight regarding this aspect of the narrative in TWO FACE DRILLING THROUGH DISCOVERY. Book 5 in the TWO FACE series is also the most highly reviewed and rated of the 9 books [4.3 out of 5 stars].


15 thoughts on “#34 August 6th, 2018: “This has been the worst week of my life” #1yearagotodayCW

  1. The bit about shannan not pushing him and that being a fatal mistake from her perspective. God, yes. If she had kept on with the haranging at that point until it had been blurted out, that would have been the motive gone.


  2. And if she had continued to press him by asking if he was seeing another woman he would have lied and said no. How long would he say no though. It didn’t take very long for Agents Coder and Lee to wear him down and get a confession, of sorts. If he had of come clean then she would not have gone to Arizona. And if she had not of gone to Arizona, that would have taken away his opportunity. Of course if he had of come clean how long do you think it would take for her to find out who the other woman was. Then the jig would be up with Nichole. And that’s what he wanted to hold on to more than anything else.

    It’s also interesting that Shan’ann thought a weekend away in Aspen, a self help book, and a love letter might fix everything. Especially if he just left it at he’d fallen out of love with her. That’s a very different explanation than I’m in love with someone else. Falling out of love with his wife she could conquer. Trip to Aspen, love notes, not a complete fix but a beginning. But a different idea of how to fix it was brewing in his mind and he must have been grateful that she didn’t push it.

    This day by day recap has been very informative and helpful.

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    • It’s also possible if he’d come clean she wouldn’t have returned to Colorado right then. You’ll see in the August 7th post, she actually says she doesn’t feel ready to return home under the circumstances. She should have listened to her gut.

      I remember very clearly when I watched this video [link below] for the first time, disagreeing with Shan’ann ito how to deal with an “off day”. All of her ideas have to do with *reading* something, it’s all passive. It’s not going out, it’s not having a new experience somewhere, it’s not going out into nature, it’s not walking the dog or getting exercise or engaging with someone in the real world.


    • It just blows my mind how she keeps spending money on trips and Level with reckless abandon, like they’re not expecting a third kid, like they’re not about to be homeless. They’re being sued by the HOA, they’re about to lose the house, yet she asks Chris to take a day off work (does he get PTO?) to see their daughter off to the same school she went to last year. They don’t find cheaper daycare, Shan’Ann doesn’t get a job, it’s just like Nick said about “Magical Thinking”. Shanann is convinced that if she puts it on her vision board and wills it hard enough, all this will go away. How can an adult think this way? It’s mind boggling. This isn’t a minimum payment on a credit card going past due, this is your only residence about to be foreclosed on. Yet all she can talk about is future vacations and gender reveals. It’s bizarre.


  3. It’s sad. No one has a drama free life. It’s all the sort of magical thinking that got her in to her messes – the overspending, bankruptcy, maxed out credit cards, behind on their mortgage and dues, the belief if you just wish something so it will be so, if you have to sell a house you can just buy another one, if you have an illness a patch will give you the energy to feel better. I feel very sorry for her and her children. This just makes me incredibly sad.

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  4. This one was tough. Really hard. Their exchanges (what even we could see [in texts no less]) were so horribly… toxic. It’s just god-awful. These two were such a toxic combination (I mean, no shit, right? Quadruple murder doesn’t come out of nothingness.)
    But this was tough. Shan’ann was just hell-bent on putting that square peg in the round hole. If she had not been pregnant, I think she could have just let him go.

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  5. Ugh, that feeling of knowing in your gut that something is wrong; something that your partner isn’t telling you. The fact of their being another person, (other woman or man), would explain all the weirdness, all the behavioral changes and coldness, but, the partner continues to deny, deny, deny.

    I’ve been in Shan’ann’s position, albeit not inside a marriage, but, with a person I was seeing back in the day who I thought had real future potential. I knew he had this female “friend” he spent more time with than was comfortable for me, but, he would deny there was anything more there, and tell me I was the only one and she was merely a close friend. I was young, but I still can’t believe I was that dumb! When he finally came clean, my world was rocked, but, eventually it came as a relief because I was back on solid ground, knowing where I stood. I still put up with him seeing us both for awhile, until I went away on a trip to the west coast and was finally able to get some distance and perspective. Kicked him to the curb, and not too long after that, started dating his best friend. 🤣

    But yeah, if Shan’ann had trusted her gut and kept after him till she got the truth, or some version of it, out of him, things would have no option but to have turned out quite differently. Shan’ann had her quirks, but it’s sad to me that the last weeks of her life were spent feeling that off kilter, uneasy, inner turmoil that comes from someone lying to you, over and over. I’m sure those little kids picked up on the strained vibe happening between their parents, too.

    No doubt it would have been a messy, complicated, stressful situation had she gotten the truth out of him, (or, again, some approximation thereof), but, the right way to do something often just happens to be the hard way. He might have lost Nichol in the ensuing maelstrom; the crushing dept still had yet to be dealt with, and I’m sure she would have tried her best to keep him from his kids, (although state law would supersede any vindictive preferences on her part). But, that’s often the price you pay to live a genuine and honest life.

    These daily recaps are really helpful towards adding clarity in “real time.” I’m enjoying them very much. Thanks!

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  6. What about him saying “I don’t know where my head is at. I will fix it though.” And also “It will be ok. This will all get fixed.”

    Decision made? Plan forming?


  7. Apologies if 2 similar comments pop up from me. I messed up the login. What I wanted to say is I agree you can feel the toxicity coming through the screen just reading these texts. It’s so clear now that this was 100% not a situation of a happyish normal family where husband went mysteriously mad and killed everyone – yet this was the narrative reported at the time and still is to some extent. I think Shannon had a right to feel aggrieved over the pregnancy which he had apparently wanted or at least gone along with. Imagine being 3/4 months into a planned pregnancy and hearing ‘ not sure it’s what I want now’. She really must have been wondering by now has he got someone else and yet seems to avoid asking that exact question – don’t think she could bear finding out he did. I’m a bit haunted by the thought that if she had kept going – she had the steamrollering skills to have got it out of him – then it really could have been a different outcome. All hell would have broken loose, she’d have likely stayed with her parents and been the innocent victim being consoled by family and thrivey friends, acrimonious divorce, Chris may or may not have kept Nicole (she may have run from the fallout), bankruptcy that was going to happen anyway would have rolled out. But, nobody would have died. So I guess the moral is trust your instinct, face up to your fears about what is happening and act on it.


  8. The thought of all these emotionally charged texts flying around that house, mostly in one direction, is crazy. Shan’non was pretty unhinged by that point; she accuses him of using her to have a son, which is crazy in itself, even though he admits he’s not sure he wants a third child. She sounds so desperate, it must have been slowly sinking in up to that point that he has found someone else. It is sad — for so long, she has presented herself as an example of someone who has it all together and now it’s completely falling apart. Her efforts to salvage her marriage are also sad – the book, the weekend away, by that time it was way beyond help. He had made a couple of bland comments about fixing things (basically the dreaded ‘it’s not you it’s me’ excuse) but she had to know things had progressed too far beyond that.
    Very sad.

    But great analysis, again, very interesting.


    • Very well said. “Too little, too late”. As long as she got what she wanted, she never saw any problems that were infront of her – but they were there. It’s weird as she keeps doing things the same, the overspending, jumping from one MLM to the next, etc… hoping that it will end differently than it did the last ten times.


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  10. After more than a year since the Watts case, finding Nick and this site have been so incredible. No insanity like Reddit or so many of the YouTube channels. The mix of astonishing insight, with facts from discovery, videos, comments… simply no where else like things here. Devoured all the kindle Watts books, then JBR, Casey Anthony, scott Peterson, Amanda knox… Just had to reach out and acknowledge. Sincere thanks Nick and commenters.

    But this letter written by Chris(?) stating if something happens to him, investigate his wife… this has me thrown for a loop. Why would he write this? I used to be much more sharp but this has me so confused.

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  11. Also, I wanted to mention something hopefully relevant. There is an “influencer” (ugh, not a fan of that word) who puts out beauty tutorials that I like to watch. Turns out she is with the MLM “Younique”. Just like Shan’ann was. Ugh. I stopped watching her when I began to notice similarities on how they speak( “I’m super excited”) ( ” hi sarah, hi mary, I’ve got your order”) and how truly invasive (and potentially destructive) filming practically every aspect of your life and your family’s life truly can be. Hope that makes sense.


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